i love right now.

a random sunday at starbucks

i bought a lovely little piece of original script art from kal barteski back in december that said, "i love right now." (or something close to that. sadly, i have yet to hang the piece and i'm too lazy to go find it and remind myself what it really says... and that's not really the point here.) for years, i've struggled to live in the truth of that sentiment on a regular basis. i love to plan and this leads to a great desire to be in that future i'm planning for, instead of the present reality within which i actually reside. my hope was that i would hang it somewhere it could remind me of how wonderful NOW is and to appreciate whatever is happening in that NOW.  

but as we know, the piece remains unhung and here i sit needing another reminder of the wonders of the present moment. so this evening, when i heard two moms talk about how difficult it is to get to church on a wednesday night when you've already been running three or four kids all over town all afternoon... i stopped. i stopped and i said thank you Jesus for today. thank you Jesus that in this season i get to enjoy just taking care of myself (and a fairly needy jack russell terrier). thank you Jesus that i have the freedom to do what i want to do, when i want to do it (except between 5:00 and 6:00pm when i must walk said jack russell terrier). thank you Jesus that i can decide at 4:00 to have ice cream with friends at 8:00 and then decide at 5:00 to have dinner with another friend beforehand. thank you Jesus for tuesdays and wednesdays and all the days after that make up this blessed NOW.

the short and sweet version: sometimes being 28 and single is the best thing ever.